strobel fleece prize

My sister and i were talking the other day, and the author lee strobel came up. He writes defense-of-faith books. I love my sister, but she's a devout believer - perhaps even a fundamentalist. I came THIS close to saying what i think - if strobel's the smartest thinker christianity can muster, then they are in deep fucking doo-doo. When i read one of his books, i kept waiting for a single point of logic...for one single shred of critical thinking that would get a community college student something higher than a "C". I gutted out three excruciating chapters.
But i didn't tell her that, because it feels almost cruel to pick on something so patently indefensible. It feels almost sadistic to point out to basically well-meaning people that over 99% of their fellowship are obviously what could only charitably be called bullshit christians...people who put in the lip service, but if challenged to live their lives in accordance with their savior's words, they would show you the door (and then lock it). Despite all the towns filled with churches filled with people filled with open wallets, religion holds zero sway in this country in any matter of importance. Zero. What, i'm going to kick a believer when they're down? Our government, our economics, our mores...the decisions that steer this country, in terms of what we do with our resources, how we treat each other, and how we interact with our global neighbors, have nothing to do with any spiritual agenda. Jesus' sufferings may have your lips, but santa's toys have your heart. Over 99% of all "believers" hold two concepts more dear, more high, and more sacred than anything else - materialism and individualism. And in the service of those values, they know that the separation of church and state is an absolute MUST, otherwise we'll be as pathetic as the amish (which they are, except in the one or two ways they're not). And even though they disparage it, believers know they need REAL fucking science on their side.
Maybe there is a god. By definition, nobody can know, and people like strobel are either fools or charlatans (at that level of popularity, you'd be smart to bet on the second). There is zero scientific evidence to support faith, and an avalanche of psychological evidence explaining why some people believe (or claim to believe, which may be the majority demographic).
If you truly need to believe, then do it. If it makes you a better person, i'll cheer. But DO NOT talk about it. Just go about your business, and keep your yap shut. At this point in humyn history, religion is FAR too dangerous a toy. For anyone.
I would say wait until humynity has grown up before trying religion again...though at that point, of course, no one will want to.
But i didn't say any of those things to her.
Deep down, it was a compliment to her that i even wanted to...a sign of how comfortable i feel around her...i want to be myself entirely, which is a rather sacred gift.
But i didn't. Love only goes so far in this broken, dissembling world, before good intentions crumble into contentious hurtfulness.
Ah well.
I love you all.