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I want a womyn who wants three men, a womyn who knows her power

I want a womyn who wants three men, i'll swim in her golden shower

I want a womyn who wants three men, maybe even four

I want a womyn who wants three men, more cock more

I'm alive, i'm alive

I'm alive, i'm alive

I want a womyn who wants three men, she doesn't apologize

I want a womyn who wants three men, her heart is twice my size

I want a womyn who wants three men, maybe even four

I want a womyn who wants three men, more love more

I'm alive, i'm alive

I'm alive, i'm alive

Bring back the matriarchy, men are fucking fools

Bring back the matriarchy, we need her rules

Part plunge pulse

Part plunge pulse

Part plunge pulse

Sexual Patriot!

Hello my ebony goddess, would you help me heal the USA?

I'm devoted to the healing of this country

And i think the way is DNA

So here's my plan, i hope it don't stink

Here's my plan, please tell me what you think

Here's my path for the red, white, and blue

Nine seconds for me and nine months for you

We should try try try try try try try try try try try try try

Try try try try try to make a baby

We should try try try as hard as we can

And if we don't succeed we should try again

'Cause y'know, patriotism

Hello fiery mamacita, would you help me heal the USA?

It's time for this land to live up to its ideals

I've seen the future in rainbow baby squeals

So here's my plan, i hope it don't stink

Here's my plan, please tell me what you think

Here's my path for the red, white, and blue

Nine seconds for me and nine months for you

We should try try try try try try try try try try try try try

Try try try try try to make a baby

We should try try try as hard as we can

And if we don't succeed we should try again

'Cause y'know, patriotism

Hello sweet asian angel, would you help me heal the USA?

This country's got demons and anger issues

But look at these adorable baby shoes

Here's my plan, i hope it don't stink

Here's my plan, please tell me what you think

Here's my path for the red, white, and blue

Nine seconds for me and nine months for you

We should try try try try try try try try try try try try try

Try try try try try to make a baby

We should try try try as hard as we can

And if we don't succeed we should try again

'Cause y'know, patriotism

Hello indigenous princess, would you help me heal the USA?

I know i'm not worthy to carry your corn

But let's watch some lovely feminist porn

Here's my plan, i hope it don't stink

Here's my plan, please tell me what you think

Here's my path for the red, white, and blue

Nine seconds for me and nine months for you

We should try try try try try try try try try try try try try

Try try try try try to make a baby

We should try try try as hard as we can

And if we don't succeed we should try again

'Cause y'know, patriotism

We should try try try try try try try try try try try try try

Try try try try try to make a baby

We should try try try as hard as we can

And if we don't succeed we should try try try try try try try try try try try try again

One Day

My heart has always known

you were out there somewhere

My heart always prepared

for the dream we'd share

My heart was always ready

for a love without compare

I always knew i'd find you one day

but one day never came

My sadness always brightened

dreaming of you

My load always lightened

imagining you

I knew you'd understand

'cause you were waiting too

I always knew i'd find you one day

but one day never came

One day, we'd sing our sweetest song

One day, we'd be where we belong

One day, you'd come to stay

One day never came my way

Staring at the shadows

where you should be

Howling at the hellfires

of eternity

Knowing i'll never be

the best version of me

I always knew i'd find you one day

but one day never came

Why I'm Not the Father of Your Daughters

1)

Because spiritually, i'm drowning. When i turned 40, some kind of biological clock ticked on. Since then, a huge percentage of my sexual fantasies have been impregnation-based. As time passes, those fantasies have increased, not lessened! It's some desperate primal imperative that persists, despite zero rational sense. I have the patience/gentleness/humor to be the coolest parent ever...unless the weight of it destroyed me! My life is constructed to enable me to create art that might save a world. I'm married to that art, and it might be disastrous to put something else above that.

2)

I'm also drowning because of creeping desperation over not having found the great romance of my life. Where the physical & emotional are complete and balanced. The wisdom and technique i've been collecting all my life, have pointed toward one great relationship in which i'll feel 100% PRESENT for the first time. Years turn into decades, and nothing. I know this dream is unrealistic, given how damaged we all are in this culture of alienation and possessiveness...

3)

I've also spiritually constructed my life to be essentially penniless. A noble choice, but one that makes me ill-suited to parenthood. My life is a rejection of capitalism's hoarding mandate. In a world of widespread, horrific poverty, i've never been comfortable with the thought of having more than i need. The financial demands of raising children might force me to completely restructure my life. Which again, might destroy a beautiful thing.

4)

I'm also intentionally poor, because i've spent a lifetime trying to refuse white male privilege (even though i know that in the most essential ways, i never CAN). As a youth, i vowed to never take a "good job" that might go to some womyn or person of color. Maybe i could have better served the world by embracing my privilege to become as rich as possible, then use that influence in a revolutionary way, but...can you tear down the master's house using the master's tools? So yes, very noble but...a womyn seeking a mate will only hear the words "intentionally poor".

5)

In some ways, i feel like you can't trust me at all! My desire is so overwhelming, i feel like there's NOTHING i wouldn't do or say to have you. The only thing that redeems that, is that "having you" means protecting you more wildly than anything you've ever known.

6)

Should you even be flattered by my desire? If i'm not tapping into some universal-goddess mandate, all i'm left with are psychological/biological motivations. And the simple fact is that you press almost ALL of my deepest attraction buttons (natural/open/fertile/non-white...). You just couldn't be better-constructed to spark a pavlovian thunder-strike in my heart.

7)

It's also possible that on some level, i'm just using our relationship as inspiration to write songs! Since i've forced myself into a radically open emotional state (which brings more pain than pleasure), i should at least USE that for artistic inspiration, right?

8)

It's also possible that on another level, i've allowed myself to experience and express these feelings, only because i know there's almost no chance you'll respond! It's a "safe" way to express feelings i've never had before. Is my seeming-bravery only a form of cowardly emotional adventurism?

9)

I'm a teetotaling vegan agnostic! We have to laugh...

"Caste"

(The Origins of Our Discontents)

2020

-by isabel wilkerson

Through detailed comparisons of nazi Germany, classic India, and America's jim crow south, "Caste" deconstructs the function of caste in a society, and breaks down its elements. It contrasts caste with class, a fluid hierarchical tier in which anyone's status and wealth can (hypothetically, at least) rise or descend. Caste can exist simultaneously with class, but unlike class, caste is never fluid. If one is born into a caste, that is where they will live and die.

One anecdote refuses to leave my brain. In 1934, the nazis had ascended. They wished to enact laws that would codify the jews' status as second-class citizens. They sent a law student to America, to study the legal codes of the south. At the Reichstag meeting where the student gave his report, even the hardline nazis were stunned by the severity of the anti-black laws.

The nazis found America appalling.

Do you?

The depth of research in this book is simply stunning. Isabel's achievement stands alongside any work of nonfiction ever written, in essential understanding of America.

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There are two kinds of people. Those who know they're idiots, and those who don't.

Do you know who makes smart romantic choices? Nun.

The good ones are always taken, or gay. The great ones are both.

Chewbacca is a bigfoot. Why do we dance around that? It's han solo and bigfoot. Am i wrong?

I wouldn't mind makeup if the numbers were reversed...if the proportion of wimyn who DO and DON'T wear makeup were flipped. Otherwise, when something like makeup becomes a cultural imperative, that's when you know a society is broken.

Humility is not "i'm not worthy". Humility is "i might be wrong".

Bathrooms have evolved to have two sinks side by side, for couples. Will we soon have two toilets side by side? Oh, i hope so.

What do you call drivers who can't drive without lightly hitting other cars? Dentists.

The only way to face the sadness of this world, is wrapped in a blanket of silliness.

Are there any athletes who point to god when they make a BAD play? Wouldn't that be awesome?

MAMA. Make America Matriarchal Again.