nazelah

Nazelah nazelah, raining righteous rage!

Please delete, i entreat, my creeping old age

I pine, i whine may we not entwine?

But i'll ne'er be worthy of one so fierce and fine

lonely sea

How old will you be
when your best lover at last you see?
A tender nineteen?
A luminous sixty-three?

Maybe your thirties?
Feeling entitled and free?
Perhaps your fifties?
Ever so wise and witty?

How about your forties?
Drowning in a sea of lonely?
Perhaps your twenties?
Responding hormonally?

How will you react?
Will you be grateful and carefree?
Or might you try to mold them
into your personal mythology?

Will you impose your notions
of how they should think and be?
Will you declare your narrative
and expect them to agree?

Will you just let BE
whatever grows organically?
Or will you emulate everyone
forever flailing selfishly?

love hurricane

We spend our lives soaring
Protected above the clouds
Dreaming of mindless merriment
in unconditional crowds
Craving connection and comfort
Those casualties of current climes
Disconnected from others and ourselves
in these post-agricultural times
And then we see LOVE!
A dream far below
We speed earthward to rest
from this celestial blow
We fall into some patch of calm
and are gobsmacked by beauty!
Nobler notions engulf us
Devotion, sacrifice, duty
But just when we drop our guard
the storm hurls us up to the sky
Finally we see that modern love
exists only in a hurricane eye
We have to keep running, keep dancing
Knowing joy, but never ever peace
Modern love is a moving target
and its chase can never cease

your beauty

Forgive my gaze
I see your hidden fears
Your beauty makes me hurt
and mourn this world of tears
I know you see the games
Only survival, no victory
But follow my heart
to transcend insanity!
The rules i'll reject
Negotiation i'll neglect
Unconditionality resurrect
to love and set you free

erosneous

Head, hormones, heart, love, lust, like

We weave a dance, a hypno-trance

Stretching each lover across this graph

It's very funny, why don't we laugh?

central casting

If you want a stud
from central casting
walk right by
I ain't your guy

If you want prince charming
Suave and disarming
Don't look at me
I sure ain't he

If you want a copy
A prefab poppy
Bossing and blowing
Keep on going

If you want a lover
who's like no other
If that doesn't cause you fear
If science and sensibility are your "sign"
If you don't come pre-defined
Then open your eyes, i'm here

baggage

The lonely lover trudges through time
with deserts to cross, mountains to climb
Dragging behind, we look around to find
a boulder of baggage, a glaciation of expectation
We brave on bearing these burdens around
Our spirits lashed, our longings earthbound
Aggrieved and abused, with padlock fused
Finally you spy another lover nearby
Eager yet wary, concordant yet contrary
Chained to their ankle you spy a conglomeration
A boulder of baggage, a glaciation of expectation!
Now - love each other, if you dare!
But never ever say i didn't beware...

really sing!

Lacerating lessons leading to loving
Haunting horrors, harbingers of healing
Daily dehumanizations devolving to devouring
Expunging expectation
Self-severing, forsaking fear
Negation of negotiation
To finally be truly HERE
In a lost world logic is laughable
Insanity immune to ingenuity
Depopulate propriety, reboot our entirety!
This offering outrageous
Rendering radical GIVING contagious?
There's no reason it ought end well
Only certainty all else is hell

gleemarcation

That's why i'm alive
To serve you affirmation and adoration
For the first time in my life
To plie' past perimeters of predation

That's why i'm alive
To affirm thee and adore thee
A mirror for your spirit
minus contingency

That's why i'm alive
To render you affirmed and adored
For the realm of "scored!" and "hoard"
becomes soon bored and ignored

That's why we're alive
To affirm and adore
The commodification dance
shall sashay no more

undermar

You make me feel repulsive and base
and wretched shame for this humyn race
Your flesh fills me with lust and greed
Your poems makes this poor heart bleed
But then excruciating existential pains
Such creeping corruptions of our selfishly-socialized brains
I must acquire and devour
Wipe away your willpower
til' all you see is desire for me
Emblazoning thee on my life's mythology!
Ah, such egotistical lament...
Shameless, aimless self-aggrandizement
This callous craving feels so cliched
A trophy-hunting endgame to getting laid
Yet in shedding the shackles of superficial city
must i eschew you for being so pretty?
WIPE IT AWAY, peer past the lies
WIPE IT AWAY, perceive the pearlescent prize
Comprehend me, i know you can
Your spirit cries for a complementary man
You'll never find eyes so knowing and needful as mine
Feel this cuore caress like a clinging vine
You embody my epitome of carnality
I'd rather die than never fuck fearless and free
Fucking unforeseen since the founding of time
The most naked fornication in humynity's reclamatory climb
A proclamation that homo sapiens can heal this Earth
An affirmation celebration of goddess rebirth

consumartian chronicle

It's time to stop starving in a cornucopia of food
It's time to finally be completely nude
It's time to be astounded by suddenly being safe
It's time to forgo this world that makes us stifle and chafe
It's time to misplace the modifier "maybe"
It's time for our bodies to decide about a baby
It's time to stop measuring increments of bad or good
It's time to be undone by being understood
It's time to see the sun after merciless, unending night
It's time for "you" to fall away in freedom's first flight

else

You don't look like her...
but my heart knows better
You don't talk like her...
but brains be chains

This lifetime's futility
Becoming a heart set free
Flown from our prisons
they bequeathed all of we
To breathe in an unbound land
unfound by humyn hand
An oasis of emancipation...
...yet one more solitary station

For who goes beyond that wall?
Reachable, yet unknown to all
Beyond calculation or shame
Where fear has no claim

Run back, run back!
to the mind-prison
they called
"you"
Run back, run back!
Else be by me devoured
like no lover
ever knew

but...

The most disturbing poet i've ever met
You paralyze me with longing and regret
I want to wallow with you in the mud
Make you a harbor for my beating blood
But...
You make me feel so aware i want to cry
You make me feel so trapped i want to lie
You make me feel so alive i want to die
You make me feel so humyn i want to try
Yet how could we endure this all or nothing world
You're not my starchild, fearless and wild
Though how could you match my meandering mental space
when i too fall short of that wildflower state of grace
Perhaps you are my reflection though
More like me than any female i know
A fat womyn and poor man
That's what the world sees when looking at thee and me
We embody the epitome of cultural undesirability
I'm not disparaging or body-shaming
Realism is where i'm aiming
I've no wish to elevate our surface essence
Reductive labels are the paragon of putrescence
But...
That's what this world will only see
when sizing up thee and me
And the world's rating would celebrate our mating
Happy to be relieved of the onerous trust
of dealing with our damages and lust
Your poems are so wounded and raw
So primal that i'm filled with awe
I want to hold you and heal you on my knees
Would we be crushed by your insecurities?
You're not my mirror in naked freedom's play
And this all or nothing world makes me run, run away
I've no Hallmark card or Disney dream
I'm afraid i must risk being rude
I want to give you your greatest fuck ever
then repeat into infinitude
Should you feel honored being thus prized
when i suffer the curse of the re-sensitized?
Best avoid me, i'm not clowning
In emotions i'm surely drowning
Perhaps my solicitous lust is quixotic and trite
Perhaps i only want to hear the poems you'll write
Being underloved leads to overeating?
I've oral solutions that bear repeating
I've no endgame, no polite goal
I may not be your soul mate but i fuck with pure soul
And if i don't love you with every last drop of me
deeper will we drift into inhumynity

reignight

Propriety and proportion
into the abyss thus hurled
Your siren song makes me long
to rewrite the world

yesterjester

We shared the most beautiful yesterday
in the corners of my lonely mind
I knew what to do and what to say
to make all your worries unwind
I made you hoot and howl
'til your gut grew giggle-pained
I stroked and soothed your scowl
'til mindless reveries reigned
Did we love then sweetly an hour or three
Our echoes rearranging eternity?
Did hormones implore we make a baby?
Dreams are not the domain of practicality...
I only know we floated together
free of fear, nothing to hide
Our lust a gossamer feather
so sacred we surely cried

dami2

Look into these eyes
for a truth you've never seen
I'm your boytoy or babymaker
or anything-in-between
It's time for life to learn
a lady-led direction
Men are forlorn fools
Erraticisms with erection
I don't know where it ends
But i know how to start
I'll never stop coming
Coming for your heart

come

Whenever you whisper, whenever you call
I will come for you
Whenever you're against that wall
I will come for you
Whenever you're used unkindly
Whenever you're betrayed blindly
Whenever you feel trapped or tragic
Whenever you need mercy or magic
Silly or saucy, meek or bossy
I will come for you

I will come for you

never

I know i'll never laugh in your sacred heartspace
That's a dream for someone else to chase
But perhaps one day when life crushes you down
one word from a clown might turn you around
And my own curse is to feel far too much
in a world so uncaring and foreboding
So your indulgence of these rhymes
keeps a fool's heart from exploding

fire

If you harbor one secret
Piss off, with my regret
If you adhere to any fear
there's nothing for you here
You can have your desire
when you stand in the fire

cruci-fix

The moment we met my heart knew
i'm supposed to love and protect you
A different message came to my head
Better to flee and neglect you instead
Invisible robots cried "DANGER DANGER"
Best cling to confines of kindly stranger
My hormones cry to break the tie
"Fuck her breathless until we die!"
What's a lonely, quixotic fool to do?
Martyr myself to nurture you?